We are not only less reasonable and less decent in our dreams... we are also more inteligent, wiser and capable of better judgment when we are asleep

Just found that quote and it seems all so true. My dreams at night are so vivid lately, though some don't make much sense, but very vivid. In my dreams I am always happy and adventurous, and just love life. Last night's dream didn't make much sense, I was back at high school and a wealthy couple adopted me or let me live with them or something. So anyway I moved to this big house and started a private school, in which I didn't really like. Its funny how such a short dream would take such a chunk of sleep LOL.

Mentally...yesterday was a good day, I didn't get overly anxious or upset, and actually got some things done in the house. The vacuuming needed to get done and my eldest helped me blanch, skin, and freeze some of the tomatoes. I love having a garden but putting away food after harvest is so much work, though it gives me this weird feeling of accomplishment. The garden is one more thing that makes me anxious sometimes. I feel as if nobody else helps with the garden, and it is very hard to work out there for any length of time with a baby. So the weeding doesn't get done, and we didn't plant as much this year as last. Though nothing tastes better than homegrown broccoli :-)

I do believe that I am going to go back to work if I can find a job. My husband would like me to stay home with the baby, but we need the money so badly and quite frankly I miss working. I feel so out of touch with the racing industry, like I missed out on so much. With all the cutbacks I am not sure if I could find work there anymore, I might have to get a different kind of job, which is scary. I have always felt comfortable around the horses and love working with them. If you stick me in a different situation, like in an office, I feel so out of place. But I need to suck it up and see if I can find something. The stable that I grew up riding at is hiring, just don't know if I could go back to working around snobby stuck up kids in a snooty riding stable. I want to start my own glass etching business but I don't have the capital to start it up and seem to have a hard time finding a grant for help. A loan is out of the question, I would fear I couldn't pay it back. I think I could be quite good at glass etching and it is interesting to me. Time will tell....