"Forgiveness does not change the past, but it does enlarge the future.” Paul Boese

I have done somethings in my past that are really not right. Though out of all the things I have done, I have never been cheater. Nobody knows that I had a relationship with one of my bosses, just him and I. We got along great, and he wasn't married yet. We had our fun that lasted the winter , nobody was none the wiser. We would go golfing, and just go for drives. But come April, it was time to go back home and resume my life with my son. My boss and his girlfriend got married, and things went back to normal. What was weird is I had no trouble returning to the boss - employee relationship, but he struggled for a bit. We always worked well together, and made a great team.

I dated the same guy all through high school. I thought we would eventually get married but things got rough at one point and I moved back home to my mothers. Then I met someone who would change my life forever, my eldest son's biological father. I guess you could say he used to be a sweet man that swept me off my feet, shame I didn't know how he really was... Any way I ended up breaking up with my longtime boyfriend, who refused to grow up anyhow. Gosh I really loved that man, 5 years is an eternity to be with someone when your a teenager. I had been dating this guy since I was 13 or so. As history went, I got pregnant, totally unplanned. Up until then, I was told by friends that my ex didn't date until he heard that I was preggers. Shortly after the news he found someone and got married. He lived down south for many years but has just moved back up here. He is still married and now has his first baby on the way. In a way I am happy that he finally grew up and is having a family. All was fine until I saw a picture of him and his wife, the feelings I had at that moment, kinda scared me. Its like nervousness and my heart skipped a beat, how could I still be in love with a man I haven't seen or talked to in over 10 years. In any case, I am happily married with two boys and a wonderful husband, and that will never change. I need to stomp out these feelings, and get them in control, because one day I am sure I will bump into him, we only live a couple miles away. It was just odd the way that photo made me feel. I think I will just leave it like that.........