“Men argue, nature acts” Voltaire

Well, my needing time to myself and wanting to do the grocery shopping alone DID turn into a argument. He went on and on about how he never gets time alone either, which is not true. He goes to the library a couple times a week, and he goes hunting, you cant get anymore alone than that. But I went anyway and enjoyed myself, took my time shopping and it was so much less stressful. He did sulk for a bit after I got back, but seemed to get over it quickly, and went out to work on my car.

I have been telling him for months to make sure that , that wire he replaced is correctly fixed etc, and he always would say yes. Well after pulling 2 starters out and replacing the battery again, he noticed that the wire was loose and not making a connection. And well to make a long story short, as soon as he tightened it, my car fired right up and ran. So yeah my car runs, but I still can drive it until it can stop also. I need my brakes done and then I am free to cruise in my fast blue car. I am so excited, I love my car and the freedom that comes with it. In any case after the wire was tightened all was forgiven and our day continued without a hitch.

We have be arguing more lately, I don't know if its the money issues or just because I am so unhappy right now. I really don't like to fight with him, but sometimes I just feel that he is always challenging me and therefore I feel the need to protect myself. It could have alot to do with the serious money problems we are having. Yes things have been really tight since I stopped working, but lately the stability of his paychecks every week has been an issue, and the last two weeks there were no paychecks. Its times like these that I am glad that I hoard food, I pack it away like a squirrel getting ready for winter. Every time there is a good sale, I take advantage wither we need the canned food or not. I do believe that it is a flashback from my young adulthood when I lived a whole year on ramen noodles and mac and cheese. I didn't mind much but now I have kids who need to come first and get adequate nutrition. We have been talking about going on food stamps, it might be a good idea, though I am still torn over it. Hopefully thing will get better soon, but in any case our lives here on the farm is very soon to change, and we must get ready for it.