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I have become passive and am now paying the price. Our marriage is strong but lately we have been fighting about stupid stuff that really doesn't matter. I am sure that most of the issues are because I am miserable, like a caged tiger and ready to pounce, I have lost my free spirit. I need to find it again. Yesterday I was baking bread and realized that I really enjoy baking bread, I love the smell and the taste, and the best part is that my husband really enjoyed eating it. That gave me satisfaction, and made me feel slightly guilty, and I don't know why.

Working has always been a huge part of my life, I love to work, I loved the travel that came with it, and most of all I loved the glory of winning. In a perfect world, I would be at the track by now getting ready to send out my first set to train. I can walk down my shed row of 20 to 50 well bred Thoroughbreds and pick out their next races, watch them get their baths after a gallop. There is so much beauty in the Thoroughbred, they are so elegant and strong, swift and majestic. I have seen thousands but they still take my breath away. There is no feeling better than leading a runner into the winners circle after winning an exciting race, that feeling is threefold if you own or bred that animal. I was totally speechless when I led my Little Bitty into the winners circle many years back. She was my first homebred and was from meager bloodlines but she has such heart and desire, she overcame many obstacles to be able to stand there and get her picture taken to prove that she was the best on that day. There is just something about that little mare, actually there are alot of things about that little mare, more than I can list. I was hoping to be able to replicate her desire and heart in her offspring. She was plagued with fertility problems, out of 4 pregnancies she had 2 miscarriages, one still born and only one live foal. The surviving filly is a beauty but lacks the heart to be a useful racehorse. I sold her earlier this year and she made 3 starts in PA, none were encouraging. She hasn't raced in over a month and I fear that I might have lost track of her. It worries me as the new owner hasn't returned my emails, I don't want anything wicked to happen to her.